10th of March, 2014.
Day one of stepping back from you. And god, it hurts. It does.
When you write a huge hell of a text message and then delete it all the moment you’re about to send it. Why do you do that? Because you’re afraid your words might be taken for granted. It’s sick. Stop that. Stop hiding away your feelings. Stop over thinking how the other person is going to reply to what you want to say. Just say what you feel, let it out; because in the end there isn’t anyone losing at this.
You might lose the person you just told them what you feel? Wow, then to hell with that, they dont even deserve your pureness.
And by this way you won.
On the other hand, if theres anything good that could happen, it is you, being happy, because your words actually mattered to that person.
And by this way you also won.
Or nothing could actually happen, but you’ll still feel a relief. The relief of throwing this rock on your chest full of words away.
And so, you won. Again.
What Im trying to say is that, feelings are meant to be true, honest, and pure; and by this way you’re just destroying the whole idea of it.
The whole beauty of it.
Stop making assumptions.
Stop erasing what you want to say.
Stop holding yourself back when you’re dying to do it.
Say what you want before yes, it might be too late someday.
If you find someone who can genuinely make you feel better no matter how hard of a time you’re going through, keep them close to you.
i hate when i lose things at school like my pencils and papers and life ambitions
‘what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger’
what if i cut off your left leg
would that make you stronger